To Share or Not to Share?

So Ryan wants to read my blog. He's wanted to ever since he found out I have one, but I have stubbornly refused to give him the link to it. Today Julie told him what it is. This made me very nervous. Seeing I was obviously not entirely comfortable with the thought of him reading about the inner workings of my mind, Ryan promised me he wouldn't read it unless I gave him permission. What an awesome guy! So now I am debating whether or not to let him in on the rare and precious treasures that are my thoughts. I don't know why it's such a big deal to me. It's not like I've said anything I did't mean or am ashamed of. It's just awkward. But I guess that's the story of my life.